June 14, 2026 +This past
Thursday, I celebrated the 22nd anniversary of my ordination to the Priesthood.
It’s been an
amazing journey, so far.
At supper on
Wednesday night, after our Eucharist, Stephanie asked me if I had any regrets.
It’s always a
good question.
I said, I
have no regrets about being a priest, or about my calling.
But, I have
many regrets about my relationships with others, especially those in authority
over my career.
I joked that
I often felt like Don Quixote, fighting windmills.
Also, on
Wednesday night, we heard the Gospel reading for the feast of Barnabas.
That Gospel
was the Gospel read at my ordination.
And it’s also
the Gospel we just heard Deacon John read.
It’s a good ordination
Gospel.
“Jesus went
about all the cities and villages, teaching in their synagogues, proclaiming
the good news of the kingdom, and curing every disease and every sickness.”
Ministry,
then we realize, begins with Jesus
himself.
Before there
are apostles, before there are priests or deacons or bishops, before there is
even a Church, there is Jesus walking back roads, entering forgotten villages,
seeking out the sick, the grieving, the lonely, the lost.
And Matthew
tells us something striking.
Jesus looked
upon the crowds and “had compassion for them.”
That also is
ministry in a nutshell.
The Greek
word used here for compassion suggests being moved in the depths of one’s
being.
I hope I’m
not being too graphic here, but it means to be moved in own’s bowels.
This is not
pity from a distance.
It is not
concern offered from a position of safety.
It is divine
love aching to encounter human suffering.
Jesus sees
people as they are.
Exhausted,
frightened, confused, mourning, depressed, anxious, beaten down, burdened, vulnerable.
In other
words, he sees us.
The older I
get, the more convinced I become that much of the spiritual life begins simply
with allowing ourselves to be actually seen by God.
We spend
enormous amounts of energy trying to appear stronger than we are, more faithful
than we are, more certain than we are.
Yet Jesus
looks beneath all of that.
He sees our
fears, our regrets, our griefs, and our hidden wounds.
And he loves
us anyway.
The Gospel
says that the people were “harassed and helpless, like sheep without a
shepherd.”
That
description could easily be written about us.
Right here.
Right now.
Let’s face
it, we are constantly seeking information.
We are
starving for some elusive wisdom.
We are
connected to everyone and often known by no one.
We carry
anxieties that previous generations could scarcely even imagine.
We worry
about the future of our nation, our communities, our families, our Church, and
sometimes even our own souls.
And still Jesus
looks upon the crowds with compassion.
And still Jesus
sends laborers into the harvest.
Notice that
Jesus does not tell the disciples to solve every problem.
He doesn’t
ask them to save the world.
He just asks
them to go.
To go where
people are hurting.
To go where
hope has grown thin.
To go where
the Kingdom of God needs to be announced once again and again.
And the
disciples themselves are not exactly impressive by any sense fo the word.
What are
they?
They’re
fishermen.
They’re tax
collectors.
They’re
ordinary people with ordinary limitations.
One of them ius
going to deny Jesus.
Three times.
One of them will
actually betray him.
Most are
going to flee when everything gets really hard.
Yet these are
the people Jesus chooses.
That, more
than anything, should encourage every single one of us.
God called a rebellious,
oftentimes bitter poet to be a priest.
And here he
is!
22 years
later!
For better or
for worse.
God’s work
has never depended upon perfect people.
It’s always
depended on willing people.
When I think
back to my ordination, that perhaps is what stands out most clearly.
I knew when I
was ordained I was not a perfect person.
I knew I had
some inadequacies.
But the priesthood
really drives home those inadequacies.
Every priest
discovers sooner or later that they cannot heal every wound, answer every
question, fix every broken thing.
But, then, that
has never been the point.
What is the
point?
The point is.
. . faithfulness.
Real
faithfulness.
The point is.
. . .just showing up.
The point is
being willing to stand where Jesus places us and to do what Jesus gives us to
do.
And let’s be
clear----
that calling
belongs not only to priests or deacons or bishops.
Oh no.
The mission we
hear Jesus give today in our Gospel reading belongs to all of us who follow
Jesus.
Every
baptized person is called to embody the compassion of Christ in this the world.
To be Christ
to those who need Christ.
To embody
Christ in very being.
How do we do
that?
For some, it’s
through preaching.
For others,
it’s through teaching.
Others, it’s
through caregiving.
Or chaplaincy.
Or just plain
friendship.
For some, it’s
through intercessory prayer.
For many, it’s
through acts of quiet kindness and love that no one else ever notices.
The Kingdom happens
not only through great achievements but through all those little acts of true faithfulness
offered up and outward every day.
Jesus tells
the disciples: “Cure the sick, raise the dead, cleanse the lepers, cast out
demons. You received without payment; give without payment.”
In other
words, share what you have been given.
That is the
essence of what it means to follo0w Jesus, of being ministers of the Most High
God.
We don’t have
to manufacture some kind of grace.
We don’t have
to create some kind of hope.
We don’t have
to force forgiveness.
We simply
pass on what God has first given to us.
We love
because we have been loved.
We forgive
because we have been forgiven.
We show mercy
because mercy has been shown to us.
As I look
back on these 22 years and think about our Gospel reading for today, I find
myself truly gratitude.
Grateful for
the people who have walked with me so far and helped shape my faith.
Grateful for
the privilege of standing at altars and baptismal fonts, and hospital bedsides
and gravesides.
Grateful for
moments of great joy and truly deep sorrow shared with you---God’s loved people.
And above
all, grateful for a God whose compassion never ends.
Let’s face
it.
The harvest
is still plentiful.
The world is
still hungry for real hope.
People are
still searching for meaning, for forgiveness, for belonging.
People are
still searching and yearning for God.
And, for all
of those people, Jesus is still sending us, his disciples, into the world.
Not because
we’re perfect.
Not because
we’re without flaws.
Not because
we’re sufficient.
But because God’s
mercy is.
Amen.