Sunday, March 12, 2023

3 Lent


 

March 12, 2023

 

John 4.5-42 

 

+ I’ve been pretty honest about this from the beginning.

 

And many of you have been on this particular journey with me.

 

But…eight years this coming May, I made a decision that was, for me, an important one.

 

Eight years ago in May, I decided to not partake of alcohol any longer.

 

I mean—none.

 

Zero.

 

Well, except for Communion wine.

 

But that’s it.

 

It was not an easy decision for me to make.

 

I liked partaking of my cocktails, as many of you know.

 

In fact, a big part of my ministry was going out for cocktails with parishioners and prospective parishioners.

 

I liked the social aspects of drinking.

 

But…I suddenly, physically, was not able to drink alcohol any more.

 

Every time I did, I get physically sick.

 

I want to be clear:

 

I wasn’t an alcoholic.

 

But I definitely abused alcohol in those years before I stopped.

 

And it was getting worse.

 

And I have no doubt that I was definitely on a very dangerous slippery path to becoming an alcoholic.

 

I am certain that had I continued drinking, it would, by this time in my life, be our of control.

 

After the death of my mother, I know that I would have descended into the depths of drinking.

 

If I had continued drinking, I would be almost certain that I would not be here today.

 

I would not be your Rector.

 

Still, despite all of that, at the time, eight years ago, I will admit that I was not 100 percent happy to give up drinking.

 

And I sort grumbled about it and pouted about it for a while..

 

But, after a while, I discovered that it was one of the best decisions I ever made.

 

I have never felt better!

 

The bigger issue for me was navigating my social life without alcohol.

 

I soon discovered non-alcoholic beers (which weren’t as bad as I initially thought), as well as the wonderful world of mocktails.

 

(They’re actually pretty tasty).

 

Giving up alcohol, however, much like when I gave up meat or dairy, makes one especially conscious in many ways of the ways one can use and sometimes misuse such things.

 

And yes, we can be abusive not only how we drink, but also how we eat.

 

 Yes, I missed alcohol, and meat, and dairy.

 

For a while.

 

But after so long, the “new normal” took hold.

 

And now, I can’t imagine those things in my life at all.

 

Now, as I say that, I realize this is all a matter of a privileged person talking about giving up something.

 

This is Western Society problems.

 

In a world in which people are starving and thirsting, in a world in which people are suffering from real addiction to substances and food, I realize that my crowing about giving up alcohol sounds a bit shallow.    

 

And I apologize if it does.

 

But it also has given me a unique outlook on those people are starving and thirsting, as well as those people who are suffering addictions to such things.

 

I realize that, for the most part, thirst, for example, just like real hunger, is one of those things we simply don’t worry about too much in our lives in our privileged Western world.

 

Most of us don’t physically thirst.

 

We have our coffees, our clean water, our water machines and water tanks, not to mention our sodas and our recreational alcohol.

 

And so, for the most part, it’s a luxury for most of us to give up things like soda and alcohol, even if we’re addicted to them.

 

There’s no doubt about it: so much of our life revolves around what we drink, that thirst very rarely ever plays into our lives anymore.

 

But although we might not thirst for liquid often in our lives, we do find ourselves thirsting.

 

We do thirst for knowledge, we thirst for justice, we thirst for fulfillment, we thirst for truth.  

 

Certainly this past week, when we watched the shameful behavior of our elected representatives in this state of North Dakota turning their backs on a prayer in which gender is mentioned—and thus turning their backs on the transgender people they also were elected to serve in this state—made me thirst for some changes in our state government.

 

And we definitely thirst for spiritual truth.

 

And I think that’s very close to what Jesus is talking about in today’s Gospel.

 

In our very long Gospel reading, we find Jesus in conversation with this Samaritan woman at Jacob’s well.

 

More often than not, when we encounter a story like this in scripture, we don’t often think about what happened to some of these people following their experience with Jesus.

 

Every so often, it might not hurt to ask ourselves: what happened to this woman at the well?

 

Did she heed the words of Jesus to her, or did she go on in her old lifestyle?

 

We know she shared the news with other Samaritans.

 

But did she reform her life?

 

We will never know.

 

But, what is more important is the message that is here for all of us.

 

Jesus talks about a “living water.”

 

What is this living water Jesus speaks of?

 

Well, if we read this scripture closely we see that, despite popular pious tradition, Jesus at no point says that HE is the Living Water.

 

But rather that he comes to give this Living Water.

 

So, what is it that he offers this woman at the well?

 

Well, we actually get our answer in another later passage from the Gospel of John.

 

In John chapter 7, it is made clear that this Living Water is the Spirit of God within Jesus.

 

The Living Water that flows so abundantly, so profusely, is the very Spirit of God.

 

Of course because he is the Messiah, the Christ, as he tells this woman he is, he has this Spirit within him.

 

But he, as the Messiah, as the Christ, offers it all.

 

And, this is important, when as Jesus sits with the woman at the well, he offers not only her that water of life, this Spirit of the living God—he offers it to us as well.

 

And we, in turn, like her, must “with open hand” give it “to those who thirst.”

 

To truly understand the meaning of water here, though we have to gently remind ourselves of the land in which this story is taking place.

 

Palestine was and is a dry and arid land.

 

And in Jesus’ day, water was not as accessible as we take for granted these days.

 

It came from wells that sometimes weren’t in close proximity to one’s home.

 

There was certainly no in-door plumbing.

 

The water that came from those wells was not the clean and filtered water we enjoy now, that we drink from fancy bottles.

 

They didn’t have refrigeration; they wouldn’t have understood what an ice cube was—so often the water they drank was lukewarm at best.

 

And sometimes it was polluted.

 

People got sick and died from drinking it.

 

Which is why people drank alcohol.

 

But despite all of that, water was essential.

 

One died without water in that arid land.

 

Water meant life.

 

In that world, people truly understood thirst.

 

They thirsted truly for water.

 

And so we have this issue of water in a story in which Jesus confronts this woman—who is obviously and truly thirsty.

 

Thirsty for water, yes, but—as we learn—she is obviously thirsty also for more.

 

She is thirsty as well for love, for security, for stability, all of which she does not have.

 

Now, we have to be fair to her.

 

For a woman to be without a man in her day would have meant that she would be without security, without a home, without anything.

 

A woman at that time was defined by the men in her life—her husband or father or son.

 

And so, widowed as many times as she was, she was desperate to find some reason and purpose in her life through the men in her life.

 

This woman is truly a broken prson.

 

She is thirsty.

 

Thirsty for the water she is drawing from the well and thirsty for more than life has given her.

 

In a sense, we can find much to relate to in this woman.

 

We too are broken people, as you have heard me preach again and again during this season of Lent so far.

 

We too are thirsty.

 

As broken people, we are thirsty for relationships, for money, for food, for alcohol, for anything to fill that empty parched feeling within our broken selves.

 

And as broken people, we find that as much as we try to quench that thirst, it all seems to run right out of us.

 

We find that we will never be quenched until we drink of that cool, clean water which will fill us where we need to be filled.

 

That cool, clean Water is of course the Spirit of Life.

 

God’s Spirit is the Water of which we drink to be truly filled.

 

It is the Water that will become in us “a spring of water gushing up to eternal life.”

 

What better image to take with us in these long, spiritually thirsty days of Lent?

 

As we journey through the desert of Lent toward Holy Week, toward the darkness and violence of Good Friday, what better image can we cling to?

 

Because that is what we are doing during Lent.

 

We are traveling through the desert.

 

We are walking through the arid wasteland of our own lives.

 

We are journeying toward the Cross and toward the destruction, thirst, pain and death it brings.

 

We are wandering toward that tomb, that dark, dank place.

 

We are that woman at the well—parched and alone, thirsting for something more.

 

In Lent, we bring ourselves—our fractured, shattered, uncertain, frightened, insecure selves—to the well, expecting only for a temporary quenching.

 

But we know what awaits us.

 

We know that if we, like the Samaritan woman, is patient, we too will be given what we long for.

 

So, let us drink fully of the Living Water of God’s Spirit that is offered to us there.

 

Let us drink deeply of God’s Spirit, who is offered to us fully and completely.

 

And in that Water, we will find all that we desire.

 

Our insecurities will be washed away.

 

Our wounds will be cleaned and healed.

 

Everything we have done or failed to do will be made right.

 

Our brokenness will be made whole.

 

We will be remade into saints.

 

That thirst that drives us and nags at us and gnaws at us, that drives us to drink from places where we should not be drinking, will finally—once and for all—be quenched.

 

And in that Living Water we will find Life—that Life that Jesus the Messiah, the Christ brings us.

 

That life we find in those Living Waters is a Life without death or suffering or wanting.

 

All we have to do is say, “Give me some of that water.”

 

All we have to say is “give me the Spirit of the living God.”

 

And it will be given to us.

 

And those of us who drink of that water will never again be thirsty.

 

Let us pray.

 

Creator of the universe and all people therein, you who formed humankind in your image, placing them in this world in all their diversity differing colors, genders, races, ethnicities and language; we praise you for the splendor of your creation and the love that motivated your hand on this Earth. Amen.

(The prayer prayed by the Rev. Dr. Leanne Simmons, pastor at First Presbyterian Church of Bismarck, at the North Dakota Senate on February 8th; two senators turned their backs in protest).


Monday, March 6, 2023

The funeral for Ellen Crawford


 The funeral for

Ellen Crawford

(March 12, 1955 – Feb. 27, 2023)

Boulger Funeral Home

Fargo, North Dakota

Monday March 6, 2023

  As I said at the beginning of the service, It is a real honor for me to do this service for Ellen today.

 For those of you who might not know, I am a poet, in addition to being a priest.

 I am the author 13 books of poems, including one that was just accepted the day Ellen died.

 And Ellen was a proofreader and editor on my book, Fargo, 1957.

 She was also an Episcopalian.

 And that is also how our lives intersected.

 Well that, and the fact that we knew so many of the same people.

 I had the great honor of being Ellen’s priest at the end of her life, over these last few weeks.

 We shared Communion, I prayed with her and anointed.

 And I was with her about an hour or so before she died last Monday, at which time I anointed her and prayed the prayers at the death of time.

 So, as I said, it an honor for me both as a poet and a priest to officiate at this service for a fellow writer.

 This service is a service in which we celebrate and give thanks for Ellen and for all the good she did in this world.

 And there is so much to give thanks for.

 This strong, independent, sometimes opinionated woman.

 And it has been so wonderful to hear about all the people who admired and respect her and just enjoyed her.

 To hear all these stories and to hear the wonderful things people have to say is a big sign that a person made an impact in people’s lives.

 And Ellen obviously did that.

 But it is these stories that we need to hold close as move from here.

 As a writer, as a person to whom stories were important, any of who are writers know:

 These stories, these words we share are our legacy.

 They outlive us.

 And they keep us alive.

 These stories we share keep Ellen alive.

 And they are her legacy.

 We need to hold them close.

 We need share them.

 We need to continue the story.

 Yes, it is a sad day today for those of us who knew and cared for Ellen .

 But we do have our consolations today.

 Our consolation today is that all that was good in her, all that was talented and charming and full of life in her—all of that is not lost today.

 It is here, with us, who remember her and who cared for her.

 The consolation we can take away from today is that, all of the difficult things in her life is over for her. 

 She is now, in this moment, fully and completely herself.

 She is whole in this moment.

 Of course that doesn’t make any of this any easier for those who knew her and cared for her.

 Whenever anyone we care for dies, we are going to feel pain.

 That is the very big price we pay for love.

 That’s just a part of life.

 But like the hardship in this life, our feelings of loss are only temporary as well.

 They too will pass away.

 And all the goodness of a person’s life rises to the surface and overwhelms most of that loss.

 Realizing that and remembering that fact is what gets us through some of the hard moments of this life.

 This is where we find our strength—in our faith that promises us an end to our sorrows, to our loss.

It is a faith that can tell us with a startling reality that every tear we shed—and we all shed our share of tears in this life—every tear will one day be dried and every heartache will disappear.

 So this morning and in the days to come, let us all take consolation in that faith that Ellen is still with us.

 She is in the stories we share.

 She is in the words we use.

 She is here in our hearts every time we remember her with fondness and gratitude for all she was in our lives.

 Let us hold her close in our memories and celebrate her life with a sense of gratitude for all she was to us.

 Let us truly be thankful for Ellen.

 I’m going to close with my own words, with a poem from my book, Fargo, 1957, a book she had a part of.

 This book chronicles the tornado that’s truck Fargo in 1957 that killed 12 people.

 But the book is more than that.

 It is a book of loss and hope.

 One of the poems I know she appreciated was a poem called,

 

The Wind Will Take It

                                           

 If everything you worked for

and longed for,

if everything you loved

and hoped in,

is taken from you

one summer evening

          shrug your shoulders

          and say, “so be it.”

          There is no grand art

          in mourning

          or loss.

          No one is going to feel

any more sorry for you

          than this.

And what’s the use of pity after  all?

          Because, as we know,

the wind will take it.

 

If anyone praises you

for your bravery in the face of death.

If anyone marvels

at your strength

as you make it through funerals

without breaking down or crying

          ignore them.

          This kind of praise never sustains.

          It will not comfort you

          in those long nights

with no one else around

to stroke your aching shoulders

or caress your face

numb with crying.

          Besides, who knows better than you that

the wind will take it.

 

 

If anyone says to you

in your grief

you’re a saint.

If they praise you

for clutching at your faith

even when it seems

heaven turned against you

          turn away from them politely

          and let their compliments

return to them unclaimed.

Sainthood, like all praise,

is fluff these days.

And, like fluff,

the wind will take it.

 

And if your luck changes

and you find yourself surrounded

by everything you ever wanted in this life,

by money, houses, cars,

and that evasive thing, love,

by all the things that bring

to your mouth a taste like sweet cane sugar,

          say “thank you,” but in doing so

          remember how quickly it can all go again.

          Say, “yes, it’s nice” but maybe soon

the wind will take it.

 

If they tell you

those who died

never were.

If they say,

their graves are empty,

their names are random letters

on eroding slabs of stone or bronze,

and we have forgotten,

once and for all,

the sound of their voices…

If they say

“look around! it never happened!—

it was only a dream,

a nightmare one long summer night,

          they are lying to you.

          Stand up to them and say

          “You’re wrong!” for, as we all know,

          now better than before

the wind will take it.

 

Sunday, March 5, 2023

2 Lent

 


March 5, 2023

 

Genesis 12:1-4a; John 3.1-7

 

+ Yesterday your Rector and your Deacon were off doing their duty to the Diocese.

 

We were both at All Saints in Valley City at the Commission on Ministry meeting.

 

Now, I love being on COM.

 

As many of you know, I was Chair of COM many years ago.

 

And I have always been honored to serve on that Commission.

 

Why?

 

Because I have a passion for ministry.

 

I love talking about ministry, helping others with their vocation to ministry, building up ministry in this diocese.

 

Now, many people think the Commission on Ministry is only about issues such as approving people to go forward into the ordained ministries of the Diaconate and Priesthood.

 

And a lot of what we do is just that.

 

We discuss canons regarding ordination.

 

We interview people who might have a calling to be ordained ministers.

 

But…as Deacon John can testify, I regularly—and by regularly, I mean almost every meeting—make a point of reminding the COM that it is not our job to ordain everyone who comes before the COM.

 

I am very vocal about the fact that ministry is more than just ordained ministry.

 

Ministry is more than just Priests and Deacons and Bishops.

 

Ministry is also lay people, and lay leaders.

 

And our job on the COM is as much about lay ministry as it is about ordained ministry.

 

And I very regularly caution us from ordaining all of our lay leaders in this diocese which, in the past, seemed to have been the trend.

 

Each of you are doing ministry in your own ways as well.

 

But don’t take my word for it.

 

Let’s take a look at our trusty Catechism.

 

Let’s take out our Books of Common Prayer and let’s take a look way in the back.

 

We’re going to page 855

 

And there, under the section called “The Ministry,” we find this:

 

 

The Ministry

Q.

Who are the ministers of the Church?

A.

The ministers of the Church are lay persons, bishops,
priests, and deacons.

 

 

Q.

What is the ministry of the laity?

A.

The ministry of lay persons is to represent Christ and his
Church; to bear witness to him wherever they may be;
and, according to the gifts given them, to carry on
Christ's work of reconciliation in the world; and to take
their place in the life, worship, and governance of the
Church.

 

 

 

 

 

 Then we get questions on the ministries of Bishops, Priests and Deacon.

 

Finally, we get his question:

 

 

Q.

What is the duty of all Christians?

A.

The duty of all Christians is to follow Christ; to come
together week by week for corporate worship; and to
work, pray, and give for the spread of the kingdom of
God.

 

So, when we look long and hard at what ministry is,, we need to remember something.

 

Our ministry together is not just in what we do.

 

It is in who we are.

 

Our ministry is often a ministry of who we are.

 

Of our personalities.

 

Of bearing witness

 

Of representing Christ---by not only our words, but by our actions as well.

 

Of the person that God has created, even in our very brokenness.

 

It’s all bound up very tightly together.

 

And if each of us listens, if each of strains our spiritual ears and hearts toward God, we can hear that calling, deep in our hearts.

 

We can find that God is calling us to the ministry of our day-to-day lives, the ministry of the person God has formed us to be, the ministry to serve others in the way God sees fit.

 

In our reading from the Hebrew Bible this morning, we find a clear call from God to Abram.

 

“Go from your country and your kindred and your father’s house to a land that I will show you.”

 

Essentially this is the call to all of us who are in ministry.

 

God calls to us wherever we may be and when that happens, we must heed that call.

 

We must step out from our comfortable places, and we must step out into our service to others even if that means going to those people in strange and alien places.

 

And sometimes when we step into those uncomfortable places, we are made all the more aware of our own brokenness—we become even more vulnerable.

 

But that’s just a simple fact in ministry: when God calls, God calls heedless of our brokenness.

 

In fact, God calls us knowing full well our brokenness.

 

And—and I hope this isn’t news to anyone here this morning—God uses our brokenness.

 

God can truly work through our brokenness and use our fractured selves in reaching out to other fractured people.

 

For too many people our brokenness divides us.

 

It separates us.

 

It isolates us.

 

It prevents us from moving forward in our lives and in ministries.

 

I see this all the time in the world and in the Church.

 

Yesterday at the Commission on Ministry, our meeting for a while turned into a much-needed therapy session.

 

We talked for a bit about our divisions in this Diocese—and why we have been divided.

 

We talked about the pain we have each endured in the past.

 

And, in the midst of it all, I did something I did not expect to do.

 

I apologized.

 

I apologized to those who I had not long ago thought were continuing to the divisions and pain by their silence, by what I believed to be their shunning.

 

I apologized when I realized that they had been hurt and humiliated and treated as less then who they are by past leadership.

 

This was an example to me of the damage our brokenness can do .

 

Our brokenness can truly become a kind of self-condemnation.

 

It becomes the open wound we must carry with us—allowed by us to stink and fester.

 

But when we can use our brokenness to reach out in love, when we allow God to use our brokenness, it is no longer a curse and a condemnation.

 

Our brokenness becomes a fruitful means for ministry.

 

It becomes a means for renewal and rebirth.

 

It becomes the basis for ministry—for reaching out and helping those who are broken and in need around us.

 

In our Gospel reading for today we get that all-too-familiar bit of scripture.

 

“For God so loved the world that [God] gave [God’s] only Son, so that everyone who believes in him may not perish but have eternal life.”

 

How many times have heard this scripture bantered about?

 

We have heard that scripture so often in our lives, we almost don’t realize what it’s really saying.

 

I actually love preaching on this scripture.

 

I love to for one simple reason:

 

The message is so basic, so straightforward.

 

And it has gotten lost over time.

 

God so loved the world---

 

The world here is you.

 

The world here is me.

 

The world here is us.

 

God so loved us.

 

God loves us.

 

Plain and simple.  

 

How do we respond to that love?

 

We respond to it by following Jesus.  

 

And if we do, Jesus will lead us to eternal life, to the same eternal life he himself received from God.

 

Each of us is called.

 

Each of us has been issued a call from God to serve.

 

It might not have been a dramatic calling—an overwhelming sense of the Presence of God in our lives that motivates us to go and follow Jesus.

 

But each Sunday we receive the invitation.

 

Each time we gather at this altar to celebrate the Eucharist, we are, essentially, called to then go out, refreshed and renewed in our broken selves by this broken Body of Jesus, to serve the broken people of God.

 

We are called to go out and minister, not only by preaching and proclaiming with words, but by who we are, by our very lives and examples.

 

So, let us heed the call of God.

 

Let us do as Abram did in our reading from Genesis did today.

 

“Abram went, as the Lord told him…”

 

Let us, as well, go as God has told us.

 

Let us go knowing full well that heeding God’s call and doing what God calls us to do may mean leaving our country and our kindred and our house—in essence, everything we find comfortable and safe—and going to a foreign place—a place that may be frightening.

 

And going will be doubly frightening when we know we go as imperfect human beings—as people broken and vulnerable.

 

But let us also go, sure in our calling from God.

 

Let us go sure that God has blessed each of us, even in our brokenness.

 

Let us go knowing that God loves us, because we too love.

 

Let us go knowing that God will use the cracks and fractures within us, as always, for good.

 

And let us go knowing God will make us whole again in our eternal life.

 

God will make us a blessing to others and God will “bless those who bless us.”

 

What more can we possibly ask of the ministry God has called us to carry out?

 

 

 

19 Pentecost/St Francis of Assisi

  October 4, 2026   + Today, of course is the feast of St. Francis of Assisi, one of the most beloved and revered saints in the Church. ...