Baptism of James William Stalboerger
June 30, 2024
Wisdom of Solomon 1:13-15; 2:23-24; Mark 5.21-43
+ I once had a Homiletics
class in which the students were told not to make the pulpit into a
confessional.
Meaning, don’t
get up and tell people all your faults and failings.
I have failed
miserably at that over the years.
I often bring up
my vices, because it’s important for all of us to know that we’re in this thing
called life together.
None of us are
perfect, not even those of who are called and ordained.
Even we ordained people
have vices.
Well, except
maybe for Deacon Suzanne.
One of my biggest
vices is. . . .wait for it. . . . impatience.
I know. You’re
all surprised by that one aren’t you?
Well, I admit it.
There are times
when I want certain things—and I want them NOW.
Not tomorrow.
Not in some vague
future.
NOW!
But for me I have
never liked waiting.
Waiting is one of
the worst things I can imagine.
For me, if there
was a hell and I was sent there, it would be a place in which I would do
nothing else but wait. Forever. For all
eternity.
Hell for me would
a waiting room in which one waits and waits and waits.
And while I wait,
my anxiety grows. And my anger grows. Andthere’s nothing I can do about nay of
it. See…..hell.
Still, impatient
as I am, ultimately I know that waiting and being patient is a good thing sometimes.
The fact is, we
can’t rush these things.
Things happen in
their due course.
Not OUR course.
Not MY course!
But the proper
course.
God works in
God’s own time.
And this is
probably the most difficult thing for us.
It certainly is
for me.
Impatience is actually
present in our Gospel reading for today, but in a more subtle way.
Our reading from
the Gospel today also teaches us an important reflection on our own impatience
and waiting.
We have two
things going on.
We have Jairus,
the leader of the synagogue, who has lost his daughter, even though he doesn’t
know it yet.
While Jairus is
pleading with Jesus to heal his daughter, we encounter this unnamed woman who
has been suffering with a hemorrhage for twelve years—twelve years!—is
desperate.
She wants
healing.
I can tell you in
all honesty that as I read and reflected and lived with this Gospel reading
this past week, I could relate.
I can relate to
Jairus, who is being touched with the darkness of death in his life.
And when I read
of the woman with a hemorrhage grasping at the hem of Jesus’ garment, I could
certainly empathize with her impatience and her grasping.
Many of us have
known the anguish of Jairus.
We have known the
anguish and pain of watching someone we love fade away and die.
And many of us
know the pain of that woman.
We often find
ourselves bleeding deeply inside with no possible hope for relief.
And can you
imagine how long she must’ve lived with this?
For us, as we
relate, that “bleeding” might not be an actual bleeding, but a bleeding of our
spirit, of our hopes and dreams, of a deep emotional or spiritual wound that
just won’t heal, or just our grief and sadness, which, let me tell you, can
also “bleed” away at us.
And when we’ve
been desperate, when we find ourselves so impatient, so in need of a change, we
find ourselves clutching at anything—at any little thing.
We clutch even
for a fringe of the prayer shawl of the One whom God sends to us in those dark
moments.
When we do, we
find, strangely, God’s healing.
And in this story
of Jarius’ daughter, I too felt that moment in which I felt separated from the
loved ones in my life—by death, yes, of course.
But also when I
felt that a distance was caused by estrangement or anger.
And when I have
begged for healing for them and for myself, it has often come.
But it has come
in God’s own time.
Not in mine.
It is a matter of
simply, sometimes waiting.
For Jairus, he
didn’t have to wait long.
For the woman, it
took twelve years.
But in both
cases, it did come.
Still, I admit, I
continue to be impatient.
But, resurrection
comes in many forms in our lives and if we wait them out these moments will
happen.
And not all
impatience is bad.
It is all right
to be impatient—righteously impatient—for justice, for the right thing to be
done.
It is all right
to be impatient for injustice and lying and deceit to be brought to light and
be revealed.
And dealt with.
It is all right
to be impatient for the right thing to be done in this world.
But we cannot let
our impatience get in the way of seeing that
miracles continue to happen in our lives and in the lives of those
around us.
I know, because I
have seen it again and again and, not only in my own life, but in the lives of
others.
We know that in
God, we find our greatest consolation.
Our God of
justice and compassion and love will provide and will win out ultimately over
the forces of darkness that seem, at times, to prevail in our lives.
Knowing that,
reminding ourselves of all that we are able to be strengthened and sustained
and rejuvenated.
We are able to
face whatever life may throw at us with hope and, sometimes, even joy.
We are not in that
weird, made-up hell I have imagined for myself.
At some point,
the doors of what seems like that eternal waiting room will be opened.
And we will be
called forward.
And all will be
well.
That is what
scripture and our faith in God tell us again and again.
That is how God
works in this world and in our lives.
In our impatience,
we sometimes see glimpses of God’s goodness and love.
We certainly see
it today in sweet James as he is washed in the waters of baptism.
We see it in the amazing
life he is about to enter into.
We see it in the
joy we feel as we celebrate his new birth.
So, let us cling
to this hope and find true strength in it.
True strength to
get us through those impatient moments in our lives when we want darkness and
death and injustice and pain behind us.
Let us be truly
patient for our God.
Because, if we
do, those words of Jesus to the woman today will be words directed to us as
well:
“your faith has made you well;
go in peace;
be healed.”